Win or not, do you finish your Nano project? Have any of them been published?
It’s November! National Novel Writing Month! And the question of the month is whether you win or not, do you finish your NaNo Novel? And, has one of your NaNo novels ever been published? Read on to find out my answer and the answers from my fellow #IWSG hoppers here.
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I’m Ann Shannon. This is my November attempt at the #IWSG (Insecure Writer’s Support Group) Blog Hop. The #IWSG blog hop is a great group of writers and bloggers who come together once a month to share their thoughts on a common theme. You can read more of their posts by clicking through the link. The hop this month is hosted by Tonja Drecker, Diane Burton, MJ Fifield, and Rebecca Douglas. Thank you for hosting and thank you to all the great contributors! I always learn something new!
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Onto to the Hop
I feel a little guilty today. I lured you down this far with promises of talking about NaNoWriMo and I don’t intend to. I will tell you that when I have participated in NaNo I have finished my project. I have never published one of them though, at least not officially. Last year I wrote a series of novellas and published them on my own website, but they got next to no traffic (mostly because I don’t know how to market) and they sit there, dead, and the last story, which was started after NaNo is unfinished. So, I don’t finish everything, obviously.
This year I’m not participating in NaNoWriMo because it would conflict with my current project.
My Hop Topic
What I want to talk about today is anxiety. I mentioned it in the post I wrote for Angela Ackerman and Becca Puglisi’s launch of their book The Emotional Wound Thesaurus, but I’d like to talk about how it specifically affects my work as a writer.
As I said in that post, anxiety is a huge part of who I am, though it doesn’t define me. The biggest places anxiety affects me are in making friends, driving, and writing. I’d like to talk, specifically, about how I combat it in relation to my writing life.
I’m a prolific writer and, I like to think, fairly good. When I’m organized and prepared I can write between 4k to 7k a day. I don’t do that every day, mostly because I’m not a machine and I need time to outline, develop and dream too. Most of the people who have read my work have reported enjoying it to some degree. And I have shared it fairly widely for a barely published author.
So why does the thought of someone reading my work make my heart stop?
Because I’m always afraid that the next person who reads it will see through me. They will see that I don’t know what I’m doing. (I do, mostly.) They will see that I have no talent. (I don’t actually believe this.) Or they will read it and tell me it sucks. (Quite frankly I’d reject that sort of criticism.)
I think every author has some degree of imposter syndrome. I mean, as authors we get to sit at our computers and tell ourselves stories all day. And if we tell them to others we might even make money doing it. That can’t be real, can it?
If it’s too good to be true then it probably is.
I think it’s normal for us to worry when we send our work out into the world for others to read. Those thoughts came from my mind, heart and soul.
What if someone reads it and thinks I’m describing myself?
What if they hate it?
As we all discussed in last months hop, we do leave pieces of ourselves in our work, but probably not enough to reveal our deep dark secrets.
There will always be people who don’t enjoy what I write. There are books out there that I don’t like. You can’t entertain everyone, but I guarantee you that there is someone out there who is looking for the book, poem or short story you are writing.
And there will always be people who think we aren’t working. We know the truth though.
So keep at it my Insecure Writing Friend!
And I will too!
What about you? How does your insecurity show up and haunt you in your writing life. How do you combat it? Leave me a suggestion I can add to my arsenal!
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